One of my favorite bloggers and great blog friends Kristen, from KV Confessions, confessed her "secret" on her blog the other day.. Well, even if it wasn't a secret, it wasn't something she'd announced to blog world before. She is not religious.
Now, if I'm being totally honest and true to myself here, I need to share my feelings on the same subject. I have blogged before about my struggles with religion and I have spoken to a few other bloggers about it too. When I became a part of this blog world, I was exposed to so many wonderful people, a lot of whom just so happened to be religious. Let me start by saying that is totally okay. I'm happy for everyone to believe in what they will. And while we're being totally honest, I admit that I felt this need to find God and be part of the family that religion seems to create.
Maybe this only happened at this point in my life because its the first time I'd really had friendships or connected with outwardly religious people. Maybe it's because I needed to believe in something at the time in my life when my grandpa had just passed away from cancer and my far too young cousin had been diagnosed with leukemia. Maybe, maybe, maybe.
See, I find with me and religion, there are a whole lot of maybes. Kristen's post inspired me to be true to myself. True to what I believe in. And you know what? I want to believe in God. I want to and I've tried to and for a while it felt like I did but the phase of belief passes and I'm back to square one of confusion.
Kristen made me feel like it's okay that I'm not religious, it's okay that I'm part of this community but I don't praise God in my blog posts, it's okay that I don't feel or see all these signs from God that others blog about. For so long, I wanted that to happen. To get a "sign", to know that my believing was working, I don't know. But something as simple as a post from another blogger made me accept something inside myself. It's okay.
It's okay that I'm not religious, I can still be part of the blog world. I can still be part of the interconnected "family" that we bloggers are. I can still believe- and I do. I believe in many great things that I have felt with my own heart and seen with my own eyes. I believe in love, in medicine, in forgiveness, in honesty, in skinny jeans, in friendship, in equal and fair rights, in shopping clearance racks, in laughter, in drinking beer instead of wine and in being true to myself-- and that is starting right this second on this blog.
I wouldn't say I haven't been me this whole time, but I have been wary of what I say and how I say it. It's about time I am the full-on Chelsea around here. Expect the same sorta content and ramblings, but with a bit more of my blunt honesty, sarcasm and sass. I really and truly hope you stick around. xoxo